My healing story of scarcity has been one step forward three steps backwards.
I’ve had a lot of physical abundance, I’ve had none, I’ve had plenty, then none again.
From that cycle of loss and rebirth I learned both compassion and generosity.
My generosity is my weakest side as well as my super power.
I’ve always said if you ask me I’ll give you everything I have.
The anguish of scarcity has been most difficult when others have stolen from me. This is a trigger.
This has looked like:
1. More than once my Yoga Teacher Training 200 Hour program has been stolen and sold as someone else’s including my presentation of the materials taken. Most recently this happened again last year.
2. I had another woman take the man I was with for 6 years without even a little idea that it was happening. She knew we were together and had plans for a long happy life and insisted on taking him even though he wasn’t available. I felt like I had lost the love lottery.
3. I had all my money stolen from a business I had for 7 years.
I learned the pain of betrayal can be healed. My capacity to rebound is enormous. I can start over. Anything stolen comes with it the karma of taking it. I can remain generous in spite of my fear of having these things happen to me again.
The ‘symptoms’ of scarcity according to Nicole Saba are:
•Feeling like there is never enough
•Competing with others
•Spending money quickly
•Difficulty/Refusal to share
•Concerned about what other people own
•Not being happy for others when they are getting ahead
•Ignoring the long term ‘bigger picture’
•Having a victim mentality. Blaming the government, society and/or family for their situation
•Avoids paying taxes
•Living by the term YOLO!
I have learned to heal my mental scarcity and lessen the triggers by:
1. Actively practice gratitude. I begin my day with a gratitude meditation. I appreciate all that I have no matter what.
2. I keep my mind present by focusing on what I have, not what I don’t have. I look for the good. I keep my mind on what is possible for me instead of wasting energy on what happened yesterday.
3. I surround myself with high vibe people who are generous friends and practice abundance mentality. They help me keep my spirits up in those moments where I might slip backwards. They model positive behavior and I learn from them.
I believe in the mantra: I make my life and no one else makes it for me.
There is more than enough for everyone. The answer when in doubt is to offer love, be forgiving and keep moving forward.