I was asked on the radio program Santa Cruz Socialites about my favorite animal. For me it is always the #butterfly and has been since I as a little girl. I have had countless experiences where they serve me reminders.
Butterfly Symbolism: This animal totem is primarily associated with symbolism of change and transformation.
-Powerful transformation, metamorphosis in your life, personality
-Moving through different life cycles
-Lightness of being, playfulness
-Elevation from earthly matters, tuning into emotional or spiritual
-The world of the soul, the psyche
A secondary meaning of the butterfly is about finding joy in life and lightness of being
What I remember about a particular life changing moment was in #Bali. I was working ever more deeply with a local #Shaman to help remove resistant layers to revealing my truest heart. We were at a 8 hour ceremony that started by driving to the holy mountain. Upon arriving we were welcomed at the ashram like atmosphere with tea and meditation in the yoga shala. After receiving instructions and changing out of our clothes, putting on our sarongs and nothing else we prepared to depart. There are no photos except for 1 from the beginning of the hike as we had to leave behind our technology.
We made our way that day to the river to drink from 7 waterfalls in the the river and in the pools found in the Balinese rice fields. Each step was a beautiful ritual to help release our obstacles to joy. It was a purification ceremony unlike any I’ve ever participated in before. To this day it was the hardest ritual I’ve ever done.
I could feel the old layers falling away that I had hidden even from themselves.
I remember at one waterfall holding a straw basket above my head filled with flowers to throw into the river as gratitude, “what pain did I have that I wanted to have washed away.” I replied to myself that I had none. I’ve done the work for years and years.
Then as I was standing there, the first one to go as we go by age and I was the eldest in the group of 7 of us, it finally came to me. I did have pain. I tapped into the pain from losing my Father, Papa, at the age of 25 years old. I had intellectualized the pain, I had addressed much of it, but not all of it.
So it was still there, as unfinished business waiting to be released so I could be transformed fully.
Without this purification ceremony I don’t think I would have completed my metamorphosis into the next stage of my life. To be honest I had held back some of this pain for 10 years because I didn’t want to be done with it. I someone thought completing this life cycle would make me forget my Father.
And in fact it was only going through his transformation that I can now more fully remember more about Papa.
This was a #rebirth for me that day in the rivers and rice fields.
I promised myself, God, the healer that with this life I would truly make the most of it. I would love myself, love my day, and love my life!
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