Recovering Perfectionist Embracing Messy Life

Real life. A little messy.
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I wouldn’t want it any other way. I am in love with imperfect people. I find beauty in imperfection. My favorite personal moments are right after yoga when I’m unshowered, or when I first wake up in the morning, taking off my helmet after a long scooter ride or after 24 hour travel days.
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I relate easiest to rumpled people who aren’t afraid to show me what they look like when they cry ugly. My fellow travelers who wear the same three outfits for three months. The natural fashionistas who make magic with two scarves and a hat. You are beautiful to me after you’ve danced wildly for an hour and aren’t just “glowing” but are so sweaty your clothes are sticky. I am happiest together when we eat with pure joy and I see little bits fall on your lap and you’re not embarrassed. I appreciate people who gobble up cookies or gelato and aren’t afraid to wear some around the corners of their mouth. I love meeting you on the beach when the wind has whipped your hair around in an odd way. I really like it when you make that weird face. I especially love when you turn the wrong way in yoga or lift your other right leg up.
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Honestly, your messiest side is what I like most about you. 😊
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I’ve learned more about compassion and forgiveness from my most imperfect relationships. To me perfection is a delusion based on pretending to be what others want us to be. It is the contrary to authenticity. I’d rather we just be ourselves.
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I’m enamored with places in the world like Bali where the chaos is in plain view instead of hidden away under ground. I’ve come to appreciate exposed wires and chickens wondering around and no traffic lights. I don’t see flaws I see diversity. I travel to places where I can’t control the outcomes and where life is messy on the surface but underneath things are calm. Instead of what it’s like in the USA where our imperfections are hidden from sight but inside we are falling apart.
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Even right now I have what you might think are too many windows open on my laptop. My fridge isn’t as orderly as it could be and my underwear drawer is pure chaos. My socks keep losing their mates and there’s constantly sand in my Birkenstock clogs. I have a ton of little tubes of almost finished creams and 5 tooth brushes that finally feel soft enough.
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The best experiences of life are messy.
Sex, eating, sleeping.
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What I know is that if we wait until we think we’re good enough, perfect enough, to really live fully and do what we want, well the truth is the waiting will be forever.
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So we might as well get on with it. And along the way give grace to everyone we meet who are just doing the best they can too, imperfectly.
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Today do me a favor, give someone a second chance. Maybe that means you.
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And let go of the self Shaming when you don’t get things “right” the first, second or third time. That’s the name of one of my books, “A Third Chance.”
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Oh, by the way, I am a recovering perfectionist. I healed myself by #meditating more, traveling the world, and allowing love but also pain to be my teachers.
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Lens #mexico #writerslife #travel #baja #writer #latina #imperfect#wanderlust #wonderlust #yogaeverywhere #yogaeveryday #weirdfaces
#nofilter #athirdchance

Washing Away the Pain

I ask myself, how did I get here? 

I’m still trying to wash away the pain.
I have been dedicated to healing my heart for 3 years, traveling around the world to cleanse my spirit. I call in my guides and guardians to help me. I sit still and meditate into the pain to transmute it.

Some days it works better than others. I’m still on the path doing the best I can breath by breath. I know things are changing because I’m coming back out into the world and allowing myself to be seen. I am born again happy.

Here are photos of the most recent water purification ceremony I did in Bali trying to flush it out once and for all. Bali Ma, Mother Bali has saved my life and I am so grateful.

I go back to Bali March 27 to feel how far I’ve come.

3 Year Anniversary of Realizing my Life was a Lie

Today is a 3 year anniversary for me. It is the day that my life completely changed and I realized that everything I thought was true was a lie.

I have never spoken and written about this day publicly before, but in an effort to stop over concealing this “box of darkness” I unwantedly received I decided to share something now.

It was March 14th, the day before his birthday, and I received his email. “This isn’t the end, but rather a different chapter.”

I want this to be clear. It’s not about relationships ending, of course they do. That’s the cycle of life. Everything has an expiration date, even Us. Our lives are impermanent.

I have no resistance to this.

It is not the problem.

The challenge has been how the expiration was revealed. To receive an email from my beloved partner after so many years together, while he was in Paris ready to celebrate his birthday with the other woman, was impersonal and insensitive to say the least.

Shock and sadness ensued.
I had NO idea.
I woke up happy and laughed and made him laugh within the first 60 seconds of each day. I went to sleep well kissed and smiling.

We had a beautiful life.

The unraveling of what was concealed took a few months. The “Other Woman” who he cheated on me with for over a year is lovely from what I know. I even tried to friend her on Facebook “Before” I knew she was replacing me.

There I said it, I was cheated on (twice by him). I have carried that shame for 3 years. I couldn’t believe that what I thought was true was untrue. I felt not just betrayed but like an idiot for believing lies for so long.

I had given up everything to live together in Seattle. I sold my yoga studio, and left my friends and Family. I risked it all for love.

Maybe unconsciously I saw the signs, his changing his passwords on his computer, never leaving his phone lying around, even taking it into the bathroom with him at home. Unreturned calls at odd hours, strange credit card charges.

I had PURE TRUST and unconditional love.

The sadness was so much about the way this was handled without grace after so many years together. The urgency to send me an email so he could be with her more openly in Paris March 15, 2015 celebrating his birthday. And there was the betrayal I felt from trusting those of his friends and co-workers that knew about her and lied for him, while still coming to our home to eat, drink and be merry.

On this day I lost trust in humans.

I lost trust in myself for having let this happen.

And every single day since then, for 3 years, I have been working to rebuild trust. I’ve done the self-work, I’ve met with healers, shamans, cut the chords, healed the energy vibration, talked to therapist, journaled, meditated, cried, chanted, sold my house and went to live on the other side of the world to heal.

One of the hardest parts has been that I felt like I would be judged if you knew someone as smart and spiritual as I am could be so fooled. I thought you would lose respect for me. I was afraid. I didn’t know who or how to trust so I struggled with this by myself. It was the loneliest time of my life.

His betrayal broke me.

I had anxiety attacks. I couldn’t breathe. I got very sick.

My body started shutting down. I got so ill I ended up in the hospital. I felt grey.

I had to stop teaching.

And for months His long time concealing kept being revealed. I didn’t want to know more.

But life goes on, I don’t know how I got up but I did.
I give all credit to our Creator. My faith in Spirit saved me.
I was born again happy.

Within 11 months they gave birth to their first baby and were married. And in the end, love is love.

It chooses us.

All I hope for her is that she can trust him.

I continue my own journey of learning how to trust again. I am to this day still Healing.

I stay soft and keep expanding.

And I never ever stop believing in true love.

 

Meet Emily Perry Yogapreneur Founder Live the Shift

I’m taking a moment from writing my #LoveYourDay newsletter whose theme is “Don’t Wait” to inspire you to do just that. Stop waiting.
If you’ve wanted to study closely with @emilyperryyoga and you’ve been waiting for the perfect time, well it’s about out.
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Emily is launching new platforms and birthing a book. I am nothing less than honored and delighted that her FINAL 2 Yoga Teacher Trainings she’s offering are with me in #Bali and #CostaRica.
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Emily Perry L.Ac., MTOM, E-RYT-500 teaches Bhakti Vinyasa Flow Yoga, Mindfulness, & leads kirtan. Her classes and immersions are infused with energetic alignment, mudra, chanting, & pranayama.
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She is without a doubt the most talented connector of East meets West philosophy and practice. She lives the ancient practices with daily grace as she balances the life of being a busy Mom, and incredible Entrepreneur and all around leader. She is a powerhouse and Firekeeper. These LAST 2 opportunities to study 200 hours with her is your chance to learn firsthand how to #LIVETHESHIFT and connect to your purpose, your #dharma.
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Learn more here: https://www.alchemyofyoga.com/ytt/bali/
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Upcoming Alchemy of Yoga Teacher Trainings with Emily and Silvia:
April 1-22, 2018 Bali 200 Hour Yoga Teacher Training
July 28-Aug 18, 2018 Costa Rica RYT 200 Hour Alchemy of Yoga Teacher Training
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Learn about Emily Perry here https://www.alchemyofyoga.com/ytt/bali/guides/
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Visit her website to learn even more http://www.emilyperryyoga.com
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#yogateacher #yogateachertraining #yogaeveryday #yogaeverywhere#bhakti #vinyasa #alchemyofyoga #alchemy #love #selfdiscovery@alchemyofyoga #bali #costarica #puravida #dontwait #liveyourbliss#bhakti

What is the Key Obstacle to a Happier Life?

Beloved #Bali Monday Musings: The biggest obstacle to a happier life is our own busy mind.
Once we access that contented, peaceful state that yoga and meditation bring, we no longer struggle in our thoughts.
Then we can actually remember we already have the key to our joy. It’s right here, right now.
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Or as Danna Faulds puts it so poetically…
“Within us lie the answers to our deepest questions and the antidote for all our fears.
The divine is not an abstraction – it’s as clear and intimate as a heartbeat or a whisper.
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For me, what Bali helped me rediscover was the quiet within my own mind but in a deeper way than ever before.The culture is based in Gratitude, and the Balinese people are tender hearted, generous and live in the present moment. They are anchored to peace in the now. It is the mirroring neurons at work, or vibrational energy at its best, and it works. It’s why I go back to live year after year.
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I’m excited for Jenny from Canada who just signed up for our #Bali #yogaretreat April 22-29! She joins an amazing tribe. We have 3 spots left with @hajibasimmusic and me and that’s all. If you’ve tried a lot of other stuff to get back to a calm mind and none of it has worked that well then why not try this. Get “unbusy” and Let Love Lead you to Bali to #growyourhappy forever more. I’d love that. 🙂
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DM with any questions +1 206 886 5743 or email me silvia@alchemytours.com
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This is my last Bali Yoga Retreat – don’t miss it!
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https://alchemytours.com/april-2018-bali-yoga-retreat-play…/
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#Bali #Musings @alchemyofyoga @alchemytours #yoga #yogaeverywhere#yogaeveryday #Happiness #joy #wonderlust #wanderlust#passionpassport #peace #calm #happy
#loveyourself #loveyourday #loveyourlife #growyourhappy #letlovelead
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Staying at luxury private Villa Tanah Shanti 

I Surrender

 I surrender other roles for that which serves my heart the most and is in alignment with divine love.

I surrender 
My past
My tethers of old
My future
My plans to the divine plan and purpose
My timings to divine will
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I surrender…
To the need to know anything
To the need to be needed
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I surrender my desire to solve anything
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I surrender…
To being humble
To being my truest self
To being seen for who I really am
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I Surrender to Love.
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I surrender…
To togetherness
To trusting in each others trust
I surrender…
My vulnerability to a Venus man
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I surrender…
To prayer
To singing
To dance
To divine breathe
To mantra
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I surrender…
To releasing bear medicine
To becoming
To living my dharma

Yesterday I surrendered to the fire.
My Intention Statement For #FullMoon 


#love #dharma #beartotem #vulnerability #desire #alchemy#alchemyoflove #mantra #ahamprema
#surrender #spiritual #happiness
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Lens #santacruz #beckyfoy #california

What’s Going on in Your Head Right Now?

What’s going on in your head right now? 🐛🦋
We can all use more time mediating about love in all ways: self-love, universal love, soulmate love.
I have a FREE February Meditation program to share with you called 7daysof.love
Great if you are new to meditation or experienced and want encouragement
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Just sign up at http://www.7daysof.love 💕
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Also included is a Love Guidebook I’ve created just for You with meditations, writing prompts for journaling (another favorite form of meditating) and other inspiration. You’ll love it!
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#Selflove #love #happiness #meditation
#loveyourself #loveyourday #loveyourlife
#encouragement #happinesscoach
#7daysoflove mindfullyin.love
#HappinessDiet #youarewhatyouthink
❤️Part of @mindfullyin.love program

Play is My Intention for 2018

I keep my heart young and stoke by rebel spirit through #SacredFun. 2018 is dedicated to PLAY. I’m engaged fully with Lila Tandava (‘lee-la’ ‘tan-duh-vah’) which is defined as the “playful and divine dance of life.”
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PLAY is the Highest form of research.
-Albert Einstein
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PLAY is our brain’s favorite way of learning.
-Diane Ackerman, American author
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PLAY is not frivolous. It is not a luxury.
It is not something to fit in after all the important stuff.
Play IS the important stuff.
Play is a drive, a need, a brain building must-do.

-Jeff Johnson and Denita Dinger, Let Them Play
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Life must be lived as PLAY.
-Plato
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The dance of Lila Tandava is a cultivation which includes curiosity, participation and witnessing. A spiritually guided process of unfolding ourselves into richer layers of beingness and becoming. A process that allows us to become more embodied, more full of our own inner fire, joy and self expression. If you’re not doing something every day that brings you a sense of play, ask yourself, Why not? Enjoying pleasure is important to your mental and physical health. You can’t be truly happy without pleasure. It’s the catalyst for a series of biochemical reactions in your brain and body. Primarily, it is the release of the #love hormone, #oxytocin that brings radiance, fluidity, positivity, and an underlying sense of well being.
This isn’t a luxury. This is the important stuff.
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Heed the advice of Einstein, Plato, and others and make time to PLAY!
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#play #joy #einstein #plato #7daysoflove #tbi #loveyourbrain
#Loveyourself #loveyourday #loveyourlife
http://www.silviamordini.com
Lens: #bali @samarakate BaliSpirit Festival #wheelpose #1leggedwheel #ogohogoh

How to Meditate – No Wrong Way

Starting and sustaining a #meditation practice is one of the key Happiness Prescriptions I follow everyday. It’s the heart of my teachings.
1. Sit down
2. Stop moving
3. Repeat every day.
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The actual sitting down and just being with yourself is where most people stop. They believe there is some right or wrong way to be still. Truthfully, that’s just your ego’s way of trying to tell you you’re no good at it before you even started. The ego also loves to try and tell you that you’ll do it wrong.
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☮️ Do not listen, drop that story!
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This is why it’s called a meditation #practice. There’s no need to be perfect in your practice. We all have good days and bad days. It’s the same with meditation. You will have great experiences and seemingly not so great ones.
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I’d love to inspire you to TRY #meditation ❤️
Join me #AlchemyofYoga Founder Silvia Mordini, Life Inspired Happiness Coach and my Co-host Greg Love @iamgreglove on instagram.
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Sign up here http://www.7daysof.love
🌟FREE🌟 Meditation program for 7 days to your inbox.
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#meditation #transformation #peace #love #7daysoflove
#loveyourself #loveyourday #loveyourlife #mindfullyinlove #fallinlove
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Photo #bali

Hey Tribe Save 11% on Sedona Yoga Festival

Hi Tribe! I’m calling you in to meet me for some sunshine in the red rocks of #Sedona Feb 8-11, 2018!
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I have a discount code for 11% OFF. Use ALCHEMY 🙂
http://sedonayogafestival.com/purchase-tickets/
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Other tribe members have reached out to talk about where to stay and if you need a rental car or if shuttle from airport is good. We could share some airbnb’s and I can answer your questions. Just email me silvia@silviamordini.com
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Love you! Can’t wait to raise the vibration together!
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Sedona Yoga Festival 2018 Sedona Yoga Festival
#heartstorm #sedonayogafestival #sedonayogafest2018