Releasement Ceremony to Let Go

Blessings on this Full Moon.

In lunar ceremony last night in the largest sister circle I’ve ever been a part of we were asked to partner with someone and share what we are releasing to the Full Moon. My sister and I dropped in to the depths of our souls in seconds. We shared profound desires to dissolve obstacles to our happiness. We gazed into one another’s eyes and took turns holding space so we would each be seen. Letting Go to release old patterns isn’t easy, but together with over a hundred women we supported one another to surrender to the fire that which no longer serves us. Aho. Namaste.

Some of my Let Go List I share here:

I let go of the need to know why things happen.

I let go of what I don’t want.

I let go of repressed emotions.

I let go of the need to know the outcome.

I let go of the need to be needed.

I let go of extreme self sacrifice.

I let go of holding back.

I let go of being angry.

I let go for my need for approval.

I let go of displacement.

I let go of numbing out.

I let go of the details.

I let go of fitting in.

I let go of over controlling.

I let go of my worry.

I let go of my fear.

I let go of my guilt.

I let go of blame.

I let go of my resistance.

I let go of frustration.

I let go of negative thoughts.

I let go of needing to be acknowledged.

I let go of insecurity.

I let go of the old dominant story.

I let go of not being good enough.

I let go of the pain.

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ONE

ONE
Year since I cut off 12 inches of hair suddenly while in Athens on my way to #kundalini #yogateachertraining with @glorialatham
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I just felt this desire to lighten up by shedding something old. I’d already sold my home and given away most of my belongings. I’d purposely streamlined to living as digital nomad full-time. This meant all I had was what fit inside a suitcase. So the only thing left was my hair.
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Old memories.
Old life.
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#letgo to allow a
New life.
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1 year later I have new hair.
And a new life is evolving as slowly as my hair grows.
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#greece #release #transformation #latina

My Car has a Story

Today was my first day driving my car in a couple of years. The 2016 plates would confirm this.
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⭐️ My car has a story. ⭐️
By the time I got the raw courage to file for divorce I had already been courageous more than once, including recovery from a hit and run at age 25 years old, losing my beloved Father on February 9, 1995 and one other time I don’t yet speak of.
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What I remember was after working for years to get my ex-husband the professional help he needed to deal with his anger issues I finally gave up on my marriage. I had to save myself because I couldn’t take any more abuse. At that point he suddenly woke up a bit and realized I was really leaving. So one night he convinced me he had a surprise for me he wanted to show me. We ended up at a car dealer where he “gave me” this car you see here, my Volkswagen Tourag. He said he thought I deserved it for how hard I worked. For a moment I believed him, “again.”
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It later came out in the MSA (Marital Settlement Agreement) that he bought my car for me with MY MONEY from my Yoga studio Total Body Yoga checkbook. I want you to know he never at any point had anything to do with my studio. He was so disinterested he never even took a single calss. He then asked for the “value” of the new car to be in my column showing up as one of my assets. He received the value of it as part of the non settlement.
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After I left for Seattle the car stayed at my Mom’s home for a year until I could afford the $989 to ship it to Seattle from Chicago. You see after 2 1/2 years of divorce proceedings and tens of thousands of dollars in my attorney’s fees I fired my attorney and hired a female attorney instead and said, “get me out, do whatever it takes.” My therapist had suggested this “scorched earth method.” It is a viable option to LET IT ALL GO.
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And so I did.
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Well, that’s how I have this car.
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You tell me, what does it represent? I could have left it in Seattle, sold it for cash money. But somehow I felt like it had a bigger meaning. If I had to describe that in one word I would say “FREEDOM.”
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It demonstrates what I was willing to do to save myself, to be my own prince charming and say yes to the Hero’s Journey ala Joseph Campbell.
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After I had to get out of Seattle to heal my heart, I left the country for most of the last 3 years living as an official Expat. I didn’t need my car and quite frankly since I didn’t feel called to move anywhere in particular so I didn’t know where to ship it to either. So it stayed in Seattle, first on the street in front of my home that sold January 6, 2017 and then at my friend Kim’s home (with forever gratitude).
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Driving around today we were awkward together. I touched the brakes too hard, I didn’t know how to turn on the wipers front or back. It was so odd to be in this living time machine with fewer than 30,000 lifetime miles.
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It’s parked for the night resting now, likely confused as to how it got from Chicago to Seattle to California but that’s ok. I’m not sure of all the details of how I got here either, but certainly I’m going to make the most of it!

Simplifying Life Layer by Layer

The grounding that yoga brings serves us as a simplifying force in order to stabilize our minds. When grounded, we plug back into our best selves and become fully present and balanced. Our energy stabilizes. Once centered, we are able to clearly see the circumstances of our lives. We no longer over-respond or over-worry because the static noise of chaos doesn’t pull us apart.

“Worry is like a rocking chair. It will give you something to do but won’t get you very far.” -Proverb

Simplify. Be Inspired. Love Yourself. Love your Day. Love your Life.

That’s my mission. The hardest part has turned out to be the first one, simplifying. Life naturally seems to be about addition and society pushes us to do more and more. Honestly, it feels highly uncomfortable to go against the norm, do less, and let go of the “more is better” mentality. This cycle of consumption is everywhere and it’s easy to buy into it, literally buying stuff we don’t need.

In an effort to live my mission and Simplify even further. I choose to make this year about  letting go even more than ever before. I’ve never worked harder to release distractions that clutter my life. Inspired by Safire Rose poem (see below), I let go of fear, judgments, opinions, perfect reasons, advice, worry, my past, and all the right timings.

I have been an official digital nomad since January 6, 2017 when my Seattle, Washington, USA home sold and I put my final things in storage July 25, 2017 when I left Santa Cruz, California, USA. I’ve simplified to 2 suitcases and a backpack on this journey of simplicity.

I wasn’t sure what I’d find at the start, but I can say that this has been my version of walking the Camino di Santiago. Yes, maybe I will go on to do this pilgrimage too. But for now, the one I’m on has been profound. The learnings are life changing. From my experiment I offer you these ways you too can Simplify your life.

1. STUFF. Give away things you don’t need. Clothes, furniture, equipment, anything and every sort of stuff. Just let it go.

2. MIND. Quiet your mind. Let go of the thoughts you don’t need to replay over and over. Stop rehearsing the future. Practice seated mindfulness meditation for 3 minutes a day. Empty out what you don’t need in your head for less brain clutter.

3. TIME. Reduce time on line. Let go of the habit to numb out by watching hours of tv every day. Make a point to limit your screen time. Take digital detox regularly. Enjoy a social media cleanse every now and again. Edit the apps on your smart phone, you don’t need all that stuff. Put healthy boundaries to responding to email. Choose what you say Yes to.

At the very least, consider letting go of something small. Start there. I didn’t get to where I am overnight. Trying is worth the effort because simplifying increases our happiness, I promise you that. Ultimately, you can think of simplifying as the most straight forward way to practice Spiritual Maintenance to love yourself, love your day, love your life!

She let go By Rev. Safire Rose

Without a thought or a word, she let go.

She let go of fear.

She let go of judgments.

She let go of the confluence of opinions swarming around her head. She let go of the committee of indecision within her.

She let go of all the ‘right’ reasons. Wholly and completely, without hesitation or worry, she just let go.

She didn’t ask anyone for advice.

She didn’t read a book on how to let go. She just let go. She let go of all the memories that held her back.

She let go of all of the anxiety that kept her from moving forward.

She let go of the planning and all of the calculations about how to do it just right.

She didn’t promise to let go.

She didn’t journal about it.

She didn’t write the projected date in her Day-Timer.

She made no public announcement.

She didn’t check the weather report or read her daily horoscope. She just let go.

She didn’t analyze whether she should let go.

She didn’t call her friends to discuss the matter.

She didn’t utter one word. She just let go.

No one was around when it happened. There was no applause or congratulations. No one thanked her or praised her. No one noticed a thing. Like a leaf falling from a tree, she just let go.

There was no effort. There was no struggle.

It wasn’t good. It wasn’t bad. It was what it was, and it is just that. In the space of letting go, she let it all be.

A small smile came over her face. A light breeze blew through her.

And the sun and the moon shone forevermore.

Ways to Love Myself More

What if you simply devoted this year to loving yourself more? Decide right now to stop relying on anyone else for your happiness. Instead, look in the mirror for the one person who can change your life. Love yourself first. And remember your relationship with yourself sets the tone for every other relationship you have.

Love yourself, love your day, love your life!

16 Ways to Love Yourself More

1. Give yourself permission to Say “No”

Say to yourself: “I matter. I am allowed to say no to others and yes to myself. My wants and needs are just as important as anybody else.”

2. Stand up for yourself
3. Take time outs
4. Be present
5. Make time for fun
6. Ask for help when you need it
7. Meditate
8. Jettison negative people
9. Be honest with yourself
10. Stop comparing yourself to others
11. Practice gratitude
12. Take great care of your body
13. Unplug. Heal your digital dharma by reducing time on line.
14. Surround yourself with people who treat you with kindness and respect
15. Allow yourself to feel what you feel
16. Start every day by saying “I love myself”

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Where did I come from?

A wonderful ‪#‎Rumi‬ writing to inspire you to see yourself as you really are in 2016 and not settle for less! Love you, Silvia

“All day I think about it, then at night I say it.
Where did I come from, and what am I supposed to be doing?
My soul is from elsewhere, I’m sure of that,
And I intend to end up there. 

This drunkenness began in some other tavern.
When I get back around to that place I’ll be completely sober.
Meanwhile, I’m like a bird from another continent, sitting in this aviary.

The day is coming when I fly off,
But who is it now in my ear, who hears my voice?
Who says words with my mouth?
Who looks out with my eyes?
What is soul?
I cannot stop asking.

If I could taste one sip of an answer,
I could break out of this prison for drunks.
I didn’t come here of my own accord, and I can’t leave that way.
Whoever brought me here will have to take me home!”

Lens: Jim Beckwith Music and photography ‪#‎bali‬ ‪#‎sanur‬

‪#‎lookinside‬ ‪#‎beyourself‬ ‪#‎bekind‬ ‪#‎goodbye2015‬ ‪#‎hello2016‬

Sanur Bali Cow Faced Silvia

Poem It Always Begins in the Dark

“You need not be afraid of the dark.

Keep your eyes open.

The color returns if you stay with it.

Undo the old worries like karmic knots being undone.

Equally let go of pain and triumph.

Welcome new characters to the unfolding of your story.

Remember this is a sacred happening.

And it always begins in the dark.”

#womanpoetry #camelpose #ustrasana #backbend#yogaeverywhere #CostaRica #BlueSpiritRetreat@lauralucyjones @inspiredyogagal @alchemyofyoga

camel double costa rica 2015